The Second note

#2025-02

This is for the first time in last 12 years, I kept going for 20 days, what I was planning to do for the new year. Every year within first two weeks I used to give up the resolution.

This year, I planned to put in small amount of time towards my blogging and a website that can be built on whatever I have learnt. So far I am able to contribute. Last year, I read Atomic Habits by James Clear, which has motivated me and gave me a new perspective in my personal goal. 

One thing I understood that, I can never reach to my goal until I take the first step. Every year I took the first step , then the second, then the third... by the time I reach 10 or 15.. I am back to zero again. 

Losing hope each year and starting the journey from the beginning, losing time and energy. Today when I look back, I can only see about losing a decade of small steps could have built at least the foundation. 

This year I took charge on my goals and I am trying to accomplish the smallest steps so that end of the year I dont regret of losing another year.

I wish this blog will be my Journal to lookback and measure the progress. it might not be quantifiable, but I would like to reflect back and see the progress. 

Introduction

#2025-01

Happy New Year - 2025

Like every other year, this year is no difference. I am trying to do something new. 

Look back to 2024:

• Became a father

From a boy to a man, and from a man to a father... Cant explain the feeling in words. I am terrible in English writing and so far, I have not written any blogs on my personal life.

I always wanted to put something in words/images so that someday I can look back and see the small progress of my life. I tried with Social Media, but I literally hated it as I grew up, I understood that Social Media is not something for personal tracking. 

I used to write diaries but when I left my home for college, I lost that habit. Then I learned life lessons from hostel days, and that is something I always cheer  for. 

Then I started working and eventually forgot about anything in life that I ever cared about. I forgot how I loved music, singing. I was travelling with friends and was feeling like the friendship is for lifetime and we all will stick together but wrong. Everyone started moving on so did I. 

Came to new country for work, started exploring the culture and hoping to go back some day to my home but not sure when. 

Got married, wonderful partner, millions of hopes, millions of dreams. We wanted to explore the world together, new places, new cultures. started with a few.

Now, the last year, having a baby, life has turned upside down now. All that used to matter in life seems less significant. Keeping the family safe and healthy is like the first priority, whatever it takes. 

I feel like, I am child again, revisiting my childhood, and just thought, what if, I could have listened to my parents, what if I finished those unfinished task, what if I kept doing all those once I thought meaningless. 

Maybe too late, but not yet, from this year, I am taking another oath to participate in all those unfinished tasks, that I was dreaming about.

Motivation cannot be external, it should be from inside. It is now or never. I dont want to regret in another 10 years saying the same as of today "What if"... "In case I started" .. "Why should not I.."...

Hoping for the best...